Oh Me Oh My

about four hours before deadline, i found myself drawing a quick cactus-boy and i suddenly realized how busy things have gotten. for every line i drew, i received four text messages. and, in a fit of irony, about half of the texts were from the person paying me to hurry and finish the drawing.

i can't draw and text at the same time. you're confusing "drawing" with "drinking".


the texts were flying in because i had missed our regular illustration meeting sunday and there was a panic. but i'm doing my absolute best to balance it all. i skipped the meeting on sunday for a very good reason.

i had other meetings.

but it's only made me busier now.

and somehow, amidst it all, i've also managed to get myself into a japanese benefit show. i don't know how that one happened, actually. i was just handed a flier that had my name on it-- and told i had till the twentieth to ready a piece of art.

"you have to: you're on the flier."

i'm convinced my life will always be strange and unexplainable.

i drink six cups of coffee a day and i don't even have time to masturbate anymore. sometimes i'll realize i'm overdue. and even though i'm acutely aware of my need to catch up, sleep is more important.

i need to be awake at 6:30am to work a ten-hour shift, illustrate for a website and a [new] ipad app, and come home to read about how i haven't updated my blog the usual twice-a-day. jerks.

i know it's only teasing. and i don't know where i'm going with this post.

just don't take it personally if i owe you a phone call, a drawing, or a meeting. i'm trying desperately not to fuck up and this is the best i've done in my entire life. but, being new to it, i'm having a difficult time doing everything i've promised to do exactly when i promised i would.

i need to learn how to turn down offers more often.

but if i promised it'll happen, it will. just give me some time because it's not only you. i'm taking vitamins and hardly drinking, so believe me when i say i'm trying.

and please, please, do not be late if we're supposed to meet somewhere. it's not my goal to be that "my time is valuable" guy, but seriously: i might have skipped masturbating to see you.